Missing the sun and fun...

It's insane to think that a month ago today, I was still in California visiting Camp Pendleton Marine Base and swimming in the Pacific Ocean... Also hard to believe is the fact that a month from tomorrow I will be done my exams and my first year of university will officially be over! Time flies... I just wish it wouldn't fly so fast so I could still be in California right now! =P

one page down, four to go (at least...)

Why must I insist on waiting till the last minute to write a paper??? After all my procrastination, I finally started to get really serious about a paper at midnight tonight. It's due 9am Tuesday morning. Well, I tried starting it this past weekend but then I realized I wanted to go a different way with it but didn't have access to the internet so I had to wait till I got back to school today. But then of course I do everything I can to put it off. So, I watched Titanic with Laurel. Gotta love that movie! "Jack, I'm flying!" Cheesy, I know but I was in desperate need of a chick flick! So right now I have one page down, many more to go. But for now I think I need to crash into bed... I'll finish it tomorrow and pull an all-nighter if I really have to to finish it by Tuesday morning. After this paper, three more in the next three weeks... Then finals which will be a blast I'm sure (*note* that was most definately sarcasm...).

I love it here at Laurier... then why am I doubting being here? At times I doubt my program and think I should be in something else, but when it comes down to it, I love what I'm in - it's what I'm passionate about. Next year I'm living with two amazing girls. But then why do I constantly look at what other universities have to offer? Oh no...

It's only Tuesday!?

This week is most definately dragging by slooooowly.... It feels like it should be time for the weekend again, yet it's only Tuesday! I have a test tomorrow that I've barely started studying for... not good but oddly enough, I'm not too stressed about it. I'm just ready for this school year to be over!
I guess part of the reason why it feels like it should be the weekend is because it's been a stressful few days. Going through some problems with a friend (as you could probably tell from the previous posts...) and being on tylonel 3 constantly really doesn't help much. I used to be able to take it and it didn't affect me at all but now it totally wipes me out and all I want to do is sleep.
This afternoon I got together with Rachel for a while (love ya rachel! it's been a while!). It was great seeing her again - I really miss everyone from camp. And hearing them all (or at least most of them, those not getting married!) talking about going back to camp this summer makes me question myself about why I didn't apply... I know I want to do something different this summer, but a ton of my friends will be at camp this summer and whenever I see them, they'll be telling stories about things I wasn't even there for. It seems like that has been happening in many areas of my life... Where do I completely fit in?!

It's funny how you hear a song a thousand times but never really hear it. For instance, I love this group called "Everyday Sunday." I was working out at the gym the other night and I had their latest cd in my discman ("Anthems For The Imperfect") and as I was listening, I really heard the lyrics to the song "Herself." I really love it... so many times you hear songs about how guys just seem to want physically beautiful girls. But this song is so different. It gives me hope that there are some decent guys out there =P It also makes me think about how I act. Do I try to impress others by the way I look? Do I act how others want me to act or do I act how God wants me to? Who do I live for?

"Herself" by Everyday Sunday

She walks along, trying to find a way out

She doesn’t know what to do, wants to do it herself

She doesn’t see what she could be

If only she could see herself

(CHORUS)I want a girl that’ll stand up for what she believes

Want a girl that’ll tell me just what she thinks

She never cares about herself

Just everybody else

She’s the same in a crowd

And when she’s by herself

She doesn’t put on a show for everybody else

She loves God with all that she brings

She brings him everything

(CHORUS)

She’s so beautiful, when her heart is open

If only she could see herself

(CHORUS)

I hurt...

I'm in pain... And it's not because I got my wisdom teeth out (although that's not a party either...). It's being lied to by someone who's supposed to be one of your best friends. I'm still waiting for the phone to ring...

Getting my wisdom teeth out this weekend... Not going to be fun! I want to just watch movies all weekend but I have papers due and midterms... should probably work. We'll see... Have a good weekend everyone while I'm all puffed up.

2 more months and counting!

Wow this term is going by so fast. This whole school year has gone by so fast. So much still to do yet... papers, more tests, and *eeek* exams! Those are definately not fun... But after that is summer - my favorite season!!! I can't wait till all this snow is gone.
I'm in search for a summer job. I've applied at a couple of places but am still waiting to hear back. If anyone knows about anything interesting opening, let me know eh!